Jet Lag is Real
It's true everyone! All you doubters out there. Jet lag is a very real and horrible thing. It feels like your skull has doubled in size, and is trying to push its way out through your eyeballs. And, your eyelids suddenly weigh 100 pounds each and your pupils have no choice but to cross and leave you incapacitated for many days.
It has now finally passed, but boy was it a bit rough there in the beginning. Going ahead in time by 12 hours AND arriving in the morning (so you can't go to sleep yet) is the worst. This was probably my least favorite bout of jet laggishness yet. And, a couple days after I landed, we flew off to Vietnam for the weekend since it was a school holiday for James.
So, I feel as though I deserve the Jet Lag struggle and victory award of the year!
Back in Taipei. It feels good to be back. I was loving my vacation, don't get me wrong, but there's something about being in your own house and doing your own tasks that's just so restorative. I feel so accomplished once I complete a load of laundry or cook a meal or sweep the floor of MY house. I was missing that. I felt a little lost at sea at home without a job or a very specific idea of what I was going to do in the future, but now I'm back and supposed to be in action.
Before I left the US, I'd organized a few private tutoring jobs for myself to have ready when I returned. And, I'd made contact with an online company as an editor/writer for some of their articles. Now, I've started the tutoring and am in the process of signing contracts with this new company. It's so weird to not have to get up so early anymore. I got used to it on my 3 month holiday, but still, it's weird to see James go off to work and me just stay home.
I feel the need to overcompensate on task completions now that I am in control of my time. I want to prove to the world that I still do things! I feel like the lazy one of the herd or something because I decided to do something a little unconventional and I feel eyes on me as I try to have at least a little success at it!
But, it's very possible I'm just being paranoid. I've learned to take myself with a grain of salt. Your brain doesn't always tell you the truth, you know.
So, I'm tutoring both adults and children helping people with pronunciation and grammar. My favorite student is a woman about my age who just wants to sound like the actors in Gossip Girl. (in terms of the flow and intonation of her speech). I'm like, "Great! You want to pay me for the easiest thing ever? Let's do it." But, it's actually really interesting. She asks me questions about things I never would have thought about. And, it's fun to be reflective on your own language to understand what sounds right or has a negative connotation, etc.
Also, I've written a short story that I will be sending around to different places, just testing the waters to see what I enjoy most. I like writing poems, short stories, AND articles, so it's kind of difficult. I figured I will just tinker and see what comes out best. My days include morning reading, tea, writing, petting my desperately needy cat who's thrilled by my new stay at home life, and then I head off into the city to meet my clients. I thought I would be lonelier, but to be honest, I love it. I enjoy the self-management and discipline and the idea that my success at finding jobs is entirely dependent on me and how much effort I put into it. There's no spoiled kids to deal with or negative coworkers. It's just me on my own, and this year will be a year of self-exploration definitely. It will be full of frustrations, rejection letters, and disappointment. But, it will also be filled with me taking a shot at something I love to do. Isn't it beautiful? I thank God every day for this grand opportunity.
Missing you all terribly!!
It has now finally passed, but boy was it a bit rough there in the beginning. Going ahead in time by 12 hours AND arriving in the morning (so you can't go to sleep yet) is the worst. This was probably my least favorite bout of jet laggishness yet. And, a couple days after I landed, we flew off to Vietnam for the weekend since it was a school holiday for James.
So, I feel as though I deserve the Jet Lag struggle and victory award of the year!
Back in Taipei. It feels good to be back. I was loving my vacation, don't get me wrong, but there's something about being in your own house and doing your own tasks that's just so restorative. I feel so accomplished once I complete a load of laundry or cook a meal or sweep the floor of MY house. I was missing that. I felt a little lost at sea at home without a job or a very specific idea of what I was going to do in the future, but now I'm back and supposed to be in action.
Before I left the US, I'd organized a few private tutoring jobs for myself to have ready when I returned. And, I'd made contact with an online company as an editor/writer for some of their articles. Now, I've started the tutoring and am in the process of signing contracts with this new company. It's so weird to not have to get up so early anymore. I got used to it on my 3 month holiday, but still, it's weird to see James go off to work and me just stay home.
I feel the need to overcompensate on task completions now that I am in control of my time. I want to prove to the world that I still do things! I feel like the lazy one of the herd or something because I decided to do something a little unconventional and I feel eyes on me as I try to have at least a little success at it!
But, it's very possible I'm just being paranoid. I've learned to take myself with a grain of salt. Your brain doesn't always tell you the truth, you know.
So, I'm tutoring both adults and children helping people with pronunciation and grammar. My favorite student is a woman about my age who just wants to sound like the actors in Gossip Girl. (in terms of the flow and intonation of her speech). I'm like, "Great! You want to pay me for the easiest thing ever? Let's do it." But, it's actually really interesting. She asks me questions about things I never would have thought about. And, it's fun to be reflective on your own language to understand what sounds right or has a negative connotation, etc.
Also, I've written a short story that I will be sending around to different places, just testing the waters to see what I enjoy most. I like writing poems, short stories, AND articles, so it's kind of difficult. I figured I will just tinker and see what comes out best. My days include morning reading, tea, writing, petting my desperately needy cat who's thrilled by my new stay at home life, and then I head off into the city to meet my clients. I thought I would be lonelier, but to be honest, I love it. I enjoy the self-management and discipline and the idea that my success at finding jobs is entirely dependent on me and how much effort I put into it. There's no spoiled kids to deal with or negative coworkers. It's just me on my own, and this year will be a year of self-exploration definitely. It will be full of frustrations, rejection letters, and disappointment. But, it will also be filled with me taking a shot at something I love to do. Isn't it beautiful? I thank God every day for this grand opportunity.
Missing you all terribly!!
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